VOTA Love But Dread lyrics

Well I'm here again, the place I love but dread
But you tell me to come boldly
But I come instead disgusted with myself
Just amazed that you're still with me

(Tell me why...)
Why don't I do exactly what I say
Instead I do whatever I feel
Abuse your love for me to serve myself
Same old story kills me but I know that you're here
I know that you'll hear me when I call

Well I’m here again, the place I love but dread

Didn't think I'd be back so soon
I must have gone to far, to think you'd love me less
For doin' exactly what you told me

Here again, the place I love but dread
I close my eyes and you're there with me
And you hear my words, as the tear roll down my face
I don't deserve this love or to be here in this holy place
Every evil I gave to You, Lord, You’ve taken from me and forgiven