WHY? Into The Shadows Of My Embrace lyrics

I conquered my own childhood silence and now the world is my lit confessional marquee,
but it'd take a busload of high school soccer girls to wash those hospitals off me

Oh, am I clean?
Nineteen.

They said sex will keep you young and make you older at the same time,
They said sex will have left you aged normally,
And so I guess it's sorta like smoking and walking at the same time
In that it will have left you aged normally

Oh, am I clean?
Lord, please, why me?

I wish I could feel close to somebody but I don't feel nothing.
Now they say I need to quit doing all this random ffff-
Now I think my upstairs neighbor hears me masturbating,

And there's other one's peeping through the slits in my curtains
And I never got a name for my shady compulsion
'Cause i messed up and kissed my shrink in a jersey city hotel room..
And I know saying all this in public should make me feel funny,
But ya gotta yell something out you'd never tell nobody.

We found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars, when we cut back the hedges on Cortelyou place,
How many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?
We found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars
When we cut back the hedges on cortelyou place,
How many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?

Oh, am I clean?
Lord, please, why me?