Blue October Picking Up Pieces lyrics

I really need to talk with you, I keep stepping on the vein
That keeps my lifeline flowing through
I wanna be your perfect stick of glue
But I don't feel perfect at all, sad and insecure flaw, yeah

I find it hard to hold conversation
I get sweaty sick and I wanna walk away
Now it's not you, it's strictly me in this situation
But I'm wondering will it ever go away, just go away?

Still sometimes I feel like weeping awake and when I'm sleeping
Perfecting how to put a game face on
And this puzzle I've been keeping has been in hiding
Creeping out the closet door, spilling out onto the floor

How long will I be picking up pieces?
How long will I be picking up my heart?

Listen, I'll be as honest as I feel
I feel like I'm getting more paranoid 'cause I'm hearing things
And they never turn out real
It feels like my heart is made of pure steel
It's just so heavy all the time

I'm scared of death, I'm scared of living
I gave up on the past 'cause it's unforgiving

I misplaced my trust, I watched my word begin to rust
I'm a balloon about to bust, I need a place for reliving

Still sometimes I feel like weeping, awake and when I'm sleeping
Perfecting how to put a game face on
And this puzzle I've been keeping has been in hiding
Creeping out the closet door spilling out onto the floor

How long will I be picking up pieces?
How long will I be picking up my heart?
Be picking up my heart, be picking up my heart
Heart, heart, heart, heart

Picking up my heart, heart, heart, heart, heart
Picking up my heart, picking up my heart
Keep picking up my heart

How long, in another space and time
Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind?
How long, getting oh, so hard to find
Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind?

But I still walk on