Emily Plazek Finally Not Sorry lyrics

What did I do wrong now? Must have been my fault, somehow
I'm sorry, forgive me
Your eyes are speaking for you, I'm blind-guessing your thoughts, too
Please help me, speak to me

I know how you taste, I know how you sound, your profile view, no one else around
I couldn't lose you now
But all of this time I taught you to see, conditioned you by always saying sorry
But in reality the fault was never on me
Never on me

I summoned the courage and you came for the ride
I opened up, let you in and oh, you came inside
I heard you enjoy my every move but when it ended nothing came back from you
What was I thinking?
So finally I'm not sorry

Guilt waterboarding me, the fear you'll be unhappy
I'm sorry, forgive me
For years I forgot myself, for you my heart burned in hell
Please help me, speak to me

I summoned the courage and you came for the ride
I opened up, let you in and oh, you came inside

I heard you enjoy my every move but when it ended nothing came back from you
What was I thinking?
So finally I'm not sorry

Remember how I waited so patiently?
So consumed by my own sorry empathy?
I wasn't a fool, I was just too loving
More than a fooled up heart like yours could ever be
And even now it hurts me to let you go
My dear friend, I only tried to hold you close
How can this goodbye be the only way to love you
After all those years that I tried?
Those years that passed by?

I summoned the courage and you came for the ride
I opened up, let you in and oh, you came inside
I heard you enjoy my every move but when it ended nothing came back from you
What was I thinking?
So finally I'm not sorry
So finally I'm not sorry
Finally I'm not sorry