Feared Invidia lyrics

I've been at it for far too long
why does it happen to him
seems like every time
he's spitting it in my face

why, can't I be a part of that
share that wealth
I'm by far more worthy,
more than him

all my life
I've been last
second choice
never acknowledged
cold hearted world

why is it
always him
that is getting
recognition
this needs to end

this jealousy

testing me
this invidia
making me ashamed

I want to be in his shoes
at least for one day
maybe it's worth a shot
to replace him with me

can it be
that I have
seized control
over this situation
bloody hands

grabbed his neck
squeezed it hard
feeling a calm sensation
silent gasp for air