Cephalic Carnage Dying Will Be The Death Of Me lyrics

Living here, in constant pain, I'm reaching out to you
Feelings I have long suppressed, control my mental views
As I walk this lonely earth, searching for a sign
Something to make me want to live, 'cause now I want to die
As I languish here, in this house of disease
And decrepitude, feeling un at ease

Slowly I put up a wall, to block away the pain
Only to have it fall, the misery remains
It rips the mind apart, scorns my soul with rage
Infects my heart, kills my will to be
My eyes cannot see, blinded from the sweat
I don't know why I, feel morose today

Born with it all, rich beyond my means
Lately something has been burning

In my gut it bleeds, making me despondent
A victim of me
Dying will be the death of me
It hurts when I smile

Only happy when, others are in pain
When I was younger, life was in my heart
Lastly vie been craving, suicide as an art
All the ways I've attempted
Was placed in the psycho ward
In a straitjacket, dying 'cause I'm bored
In the end, dying will be the death of me