Joe Budden Pray For Me lyrics

Look, I woke up without a heart beat
But I remember we was just in the car deep
Was at a light and got approached by a car thief
He pulled out but didn't ask for no car keys

A loud noise without a voice
But I'm tryna scream out, shit it's not fair
I can't tell you where I'm at or how I got here
Surrounded by all white, maybe it's just cloudy
Escorted by two men who knew everythin' about me

Both of 'em so strong, kept sayin' hold on
Feel like my soul's gone, naked no clothes on
I know this can't be my fate, I scream wait
As they drop me in front of a gate

They left no trace, I can see my every breath
Like a cold day, stood in front a man with no face
He said to me, please don't make this any harder
Who the fuck is you? My child, I'm your father

I only got one dad, is that a fact to you?
He left you when you was young, I brought him back to you
You're real close to heaven, few get to step in
Now tell me what you've done to deserve to be let in

Look I'm far from a Christian, not big on religion
But ain't done too much wrong my entire time livin'
Never killed, never tried to, though I been lied to
Was once suicidal, never read the Bible

I always been a caretaker, tried to nurse people
At times it back fired, hurt people, hurt people
Plus I never used Your name in vain
But You should know everythin' I'm bein' asked explained

I know you stole from your mother's purse
You can't count that, that was way back when
It's still a sin but I was ten, you robbed peoples' stores
Yeah, and You made me see jail

But I also seen you lay your hands on a female
Sold drugs to parents, none of that was needed
Abandoned your child, on every girl you cheated
Done wrong to people that only want the best for you
Anytime you thought you were alone, I was next to you

When it comes to baby moms
God, You gave me the worst one
But that was your second child Joe
You shouldn't have killed the first one
I ain't have a job, ain't have a pot to piss in

Look I gave you a gift, and you made the wrong decision
Held on to resentments, even in doin' business

I lead by example, I teach forgiveness
Your entry cannot be guaranteed

Not when you live with anger, envy, greed
Pride, sloth, lust, even gluttony
Everything you shouldn't
If you would've joined My covenant

Look I'm only human, I ain't perfect that I understand
When I take you out a jam, you don't even think to worship
And when you do, you never talk about what
You can do for me, it's what I can do for you

I blessed you with health, family and wealth
But all the blessings you've received, you still always want help
Yeah, there's been times in my life I needed help to make money
But why everythin' I love, you manage to take from me

Yet you stand there and question a nigga that tries hard
And finds a way when you keep dealin' him fucked up cards
You make mistakes like me, far as I can see
I think it's a mockery whenever rich nigga's win the lottery

Gave us Bush twice, God I hate to be rude
But You let skinny nigga's starve, give obese nigga's food
The nerve of You tellin' me, I don't deserve to stay here
When You gave us drugs and guns, You put AIDS here

Take a look at You, Your actions are cold hearted
The harsh shit is You bring babies in the world retarded
I know most my actions put me in a cell
Now how You mad at me when You put me in the hell?

See my child, you need gratitude, maybe just a sample
I never give a person anything he can't handle
Don't tell me 'bout everythin' you had to go through
There's reasons for my actions even if I never showed you

Kept tryin' with you, all you did was hurt me
Still gave you chances to prove that you was worthy
And so I sat with you on a train
I asked you for change, you kept callin' me names

Prolly didn't notice, I was a store clerk
You put the gun to me, get money for more work
My child, I know you have it in you to indeed stop
This is not your final callin', just a brief stop

Hope you heed my words and understand
So when I see you back, you should be a better man
Look at life different, the next time we see each other
There'll be no need to talk, whenever we meet each other