Justin Lang The evil the consumes lyrics

I'm starting to think have I turned evil and I don't know why
Do I even know how to get back to being a good guy
is there even a way back to try sometimes I feel like I should die
as my punishment for all the lives that have suffered from my hands my lies and my alibis
I don't know why
but I don't even try to be the man I use to be
covered with morals strap on my chest like the gun I carry now its almost elementary squeeze that trigger easier than trying its preferable than admitting I'm dying
I'm the biggest dinner doesn't mean I'm no winner defiantly not a saint
And you just can't
The man you used to be my head screaming out at me
My heart crying
thinking that it's dying

All because the choices made
For a chance to get laid
A chance to get paid
This evil consumes my soul
It's not like rock n roll
And it starts to burn a hole
I'm trying to stay constantly
It really means a lot to me
An I feel like such a piece of shit