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I wanna know how it will end
I wanna be sure of what it will cost
I wanna strangle the stars for all they promised me
I want you to call me on your drug phone
I wanna keep you alive
So there is always the possibility of murder later

I wanna be there when you learn the cost of desire
I want you to understand that my malevolence
Is just a way to win
I want the name of the ruiner

I want matches in case I have to suddenly burn
I want you to know that being kind is overrated
I wanna write my secret across your sky
I wanna watch you lose control
I wanna watch you lose

I wanna know exactly what it's gonna take
I wanna see you insert yourself into glory
I want your touches to scar me
So I'll know where you've been

I want you to watch when I go down in flames
I want a list of atrocities done in your name
I wanna reach my hand into the dark
And feel what reaches back

I wanna remember when my nightmares were clearer

I wanna be there when your hot black rage rips wide open
I wanna taste my own kind
I wanna be wrapped in cold wet sheets
To see if it's different on this side

I want you to come on strong
I wanna leave you out in the cold
I want the exact same thing, but different
I want some soft drugs, some soft, soft drugs
I wanna throw you, I want you to know I know

I wanna know if you read me
I wanna swing with my eyes shut and see what I hit
I wanna know just how much you hate me
So I can predict what you'll do

I want you to know the wounds are self inflicted
I want a controlling interest
I wanna be somewhere beautiful when I die

I wanna be your secret hater
I wanna stop destroying you but I can't
And I want and I want and I want
And I will always be hungry

And I want and I want and I want