Adam Marsland Despair lyrics

Just when I thought I could lift my head
To the earth and the sky and my daily bread
I reached out for joy and I touched instead
Despair

Round and around in my mind I go
Through the figure-8 worst case scenario
Into the floe, behold and be-lo
Despair

Alone in the room at the back of the moon
Light years from humanity
Into the black, closing the gap
between denial and insanity is
Despair

I saw an island of hope and an anchor tossed

Into a river of faith I can't swim across
Now I'm rowing a stone home to gather moss
Despair

I took two steps backward into a truck
On a cloverleaf exiting to bad luck
And that's a roundabout way to say
I'm sucking out the air....Despair

Just when I thought I could shake a hand
Without shaking like a leaf
Hiding my head and down on a knee
To good God and good grief