I gave my things away
I called the people that I only see on holidays
This next year's gonna burn a hole in me
I spent my weekdays in my car
And the weekends drinking hard enough for two
I think I'll settle down one of these days till I catch my breath
I feel the weight of the world on my back but I'm not feeling sick to death
'Cause I laid awake in bed and thought of better times
I never wanna sleep 'cause I found apathy
In laying down and never waking up, never waking up
I've learned a lot today
'Cause there's a reason why I'll never live the easy way
I'm trying to be real
I wrote down words inside my arm that say
I'll never walk alone 'cause I get tired
I know I'll have my friends in every way
So I caught my breath and for the first time I found what I'm looking for
'Cause I laid awake in bed and thought of better times
I never wanna sleep 'cause I found apathy
In laying down and never waking up, never waking up
I laid awake in bed and thought of better times
I never wanna sleep 'cause I found apathy
In laying down and never waking up, never waking up
Yeah I went down, yeah I found a way
In the city where my father was born
I had a dream I moved out west
I finally found out what I wanted to be so I picked up where I left
And I waited two more years and covered up my ears
I think I'm ready to sing this time
I think I'm ready to sing this time
I laid awake in bed and thought of better times
I never wanna sleep 'cause I found apathy
In laying down and never waking up, never waking up
I laid awake in bed, thought of better times
I never wanna sleep 'cause I found apathy
In laying down and never waking up, never waking up