Life Of Agony How It Would Be lyrics

I wonder how it would be if my mother was still around
The types of talk, the relationships we could have had
The three of us, me, you and dad

My mouth went dry, my stomach felt queasy too
So empty and scared, it's all because of you
A dead body that turned out not to be dead
No one understands

Wish I really knew what happened to my mom
'Cause my family, they told me nothing but lie
They figured if they just told me the truth
I'd break down and cry

Feel betrayed and turn profoundly insecure
Want to knock ten times on heaven's door
Still suffering from old emotional wound
I was getting worse

Can't depend on them and their lies
Why did she leave and how did she die?
When it gets colder outside, I'll be back next year
With that feeling to make me cry
With that feeling to make me cry

With that feeling to make me cry

Wanna go, visit her grave because it's been a long, long time
Want to pick a peach rose and rest it on it's side
Say a prayer even though I don't believe and say goodbye

Don't get me wrong, I have a mind to keep me strong
There's this feeling of not knowing what went wrong
And how she's dead and gone
Oh, 'cause she's dead and gone

Can't depend on them and their lies
Why did she leave and how did she die?
When it gets colder outside, I'll be back next year
With that feeling to make me cry
With that feeling to make me cry, oh
With that feeling to make me cry, [Incomprehensible]

Don't think, anyone thinks
Of you as much as I do
As much as I do