Mama Chill Disappointed lyrics

INTRO: Disappointed in me, disappointed in me, disappointed in me, they're always disappointed in me
I used to look to my future with bated breath, see a psychiatiric unit, jail or death I was scared of tha headhouse, not tha other two, I could've cope with jail, death? I wouldn't have to You as a kid don't get no control , u can end up on a road u don't wanna go For tha sake & tha luv & tha loyalty of fam, I used to look in tha mirror think “That aint who I am” Damn my life an tha struggle with tha pain, I had tha blood of another on my knuckles an tha shame & I blamed myself for everything I'd become, but there were only bad choices & I had to choose one Don't let me get a gun lord, I used to pray, if I pull tha trigger on them, I'll be blowin my own life away. Say what ya want but I tried real hard, not to end up a statistic playing tha sympathy card.

I know I'm not tha best I'm not tha prettiest, I'm not tha cleverest Just Trying be tha best that I can be
I know who I am, a work in progress alien
And they'll always be someone disappointed in me
You cant please everybody all of tha time or even half or a lil bit when it comes to mine You can shine, but theres nuthin, & tha silence is golden, I aint gonna ask, don't wanna be beholden & it will never be enough you could offer up ya soul and they'd still want it gift wrapped & delivered to tha door & even more til you've nuthin & you're down on ya knees & ya scratchin in tha corners of ya brain for ways ta please til you leave yaself behind and you don know who you are, well hallo I'm Mama Chill
& I'm aimin for tha stars, I don't want cars or money or fame,just to keep makin music coz its runnin thru my veins And tha pain & tha struggles do mean a thing coz But I aint here to whinge, I'm just here to sing & lay it on down before ya let ya mouth go, it's not what ya think its bout what I know

& I know I'm not tha best I'm not tha prettiest, I'm not tha cleverest just trying be tha best that I can be I know who I am, a work in progress alien
And they'll always be someone disappointed in me

But thatz alright coz I'm disappointed to, in other people & their attitude & all of tha ones who try to f**k up my head, I wanna be a recluse & live out on tha edge .Few are rarely satisfied, its drama personified, & I just want a simple life & a peaceful life.
I know I'm not tha best I'm not tha prettiest, I'm not tha cleverest just trying be tha best that I can be
I know who I am, a work in progress alien
And they'll always be someone…
& They always be someone…
They'll always be someone disappointed in me
Disappointed in me, disappointed in me, disappointed in you, they're always disappointed in me.