Calling Out Closer Caution and Crime lyrics

I'm making her laugh, but it only reminds me
Of love I have passed on my way to hypocrisy
I'm hard on myself cause I know she's deserving
Of knowing the truth that I'm so skillfully covering

I think love's an illusion
Or at least it eludes me
Cause I push it away
And let it die suddenly

I'm the source of her smile, and I'm starting to like it
My face is a mirror, is there something behind it?

I've got a fact fast in my mind
Surrounded by mysteries known only by time

Your kaleidoscope eyes turn and start to distort mine
You see colors you like, it allows me to hide
I am the blinking light of caution and crime
Simultaneously hope and a warning sign

Push me away, don't let me stay
Oh no, don't let me go