Psychotic Eyes I Only Smile Behind the Mask lyrics

Maybe i hadn't saw the red light
Perhaps i just didn't care,
Imagining it wouldn't affect myself
I never tought about what is life and death
I'd realize
I saw the face of death
As a monster
Coming fast
Metal tore
My face and scared my neck
That brief omission
Collapsed my flesh
May i never talk or i just don't care
Maybe it's a dream that had never happened
But there is no mask for who never cares
I only smile behind the mask
A milisecond wrong decision forced me to wear
I only smile behind the mask
A milisecond wrong decision forced me to wear
My soul wears no mask
Since then i have not my true face
Perhaps i don't even care
Did that illusion really happened? did i deserve what i caused to myself?
I now realize
I exchanged the face of death
For a monstrous

That is not my self
Memories
(when i used to be happy)
Bring some smiles
With the taste of sadness
May i never look the truth behind the mask
Maybe it's the smile that i sometimes wear
But there is no mask for who never cares
I only smile behind the mask
A milisecond wrong decision forced me to wear
I only smile behind the mask
A milisecond wrong decision forced me to wear
My soul wears no mask
(lead) ("sometimes i wonder my soul was uglier than the vision i now have in the mirror
This thought hurts, and i can't stand this pain.")
My life and dreams had fade away
The mirror now is my enemy
Oh my only eye demands compassion
The mirror proves i'm guilty
I don't want to dream each day one nightmare
I'm deep scarred, people are my enemies
I don't want to live the life of someone else
I want to smile again and throw away this mask