Abandoning Sunday Guarded lyrics

I had it all figured out. I wouldn't miss a thing. I hope you're listening now. I hope you hear me. I'm not sure what to say and I don't know how to respond. Tell me what to do if I can't be good enough. I can't believe I stood so close to where to where I throw it all away. There's nothing for me here anymore. No reason I should stay. Break my heart and make it fast 'cause it's all already lost. Please say something just not that ‘cause I cant feel anything at all. I can't believe I stood so close to where I throw it all away. There's nothing for me here anymore. No reason I should stay. Tell me something I don't know or I hope I just forgot. And I hope he makes you laugh like I never could and that's he's everything I'm not. And I just want the truth. Is it really all that hard? And you won't get to watch when I fall all apart. I can't believe I stood so close to where I throw it all away. There's nothing for me here anymore. No reason I should stay. Tell me a lie that I'll believe and then maybe I'll forget. And I can't be everything you need but I meant everything I said. I can't believe I stood so close to where I throw it all away.