Schaffer the Darklord The Amender Lyrics Schaffer The Darklord lyrics

Looking back upon this life I've been living
I see the victories I win and all the love I've been given
By all of the men and the women who've been instrumental in it
Yet, it took reflection to get me to pause for a minute

And realize that my modicum of success has come from being a monster
Mortified by what I've done, and I've become
For every back stabbed I feel the heat of the fire
I've been a Very Bad Man, a cheating thief, and a liar

I've required your decency, while I break all my rules
All of you who've been so sweet to me, I've played you like fools
Inside of this sheep's hide, a scared and arrogant kid
I've never meant to hurt you, I've just never cared if I did

So now I write this song of regrets, I've more than a few
And I will right these wrongs and repent before all of you
To all of my family, and my ex's, and my fans, and my friends
I can change, I can apologize, it's time to make amends

I'm sorry Casey, I'm sorry Jaime
I'm sorry Brandi, I know you all probably hate me
Sorry Elizabeth, I'm sorry Lindsey
I'm sorry Sarah, I hope someday that you can forgive me

I'm sorry Lisa, I'm sorry Susie
I'm sorry Rachel, I made sure you barely knew me
Isabella, Alithea, Gretchen, Allison, and Wendy
I'm sorry again Sarah, I'll regret it 'til my ending

Looking back upon this list of my embarrassments
The friends that I left behind, the bands I abandoned
It's a miracle my relatives still acknowledge my existence
Given how distant I've been since I first fled from the Midwest

All the prizes I stole, and all the lies that I told

All the crying that I caused and watched with eyes that were cold
All my spite and my jealousy, insecurity the cause
Relied on dependency on sex, drugs, and applause

Hey Rat, I haven't been the best friend to you, and you know
I could say the same to Greg, and Emily, and Pete, and Lugo
Mandy, Ivan, Rob, and Lottie - Oh how I miss you!
And you Chris? Well I guess it's time that I forgive you

Look, I know it may be late, suspicious, or whatever
But treatment's been good for me, I'll probably be in it forever
I've been blind my whole life, but now I finally get it
If my life's a movie, know I'll see your names in the credits

I'm sorry Jason, I'm sorry Mikey
I'm sorry Femur, I'm sorry Mark and Mike G
I'm sorry David, Ricky, Rocco, Beege, and Coolzey
Liisa, Jeremy, and D, and Scott I've got apologies

I'm sorry father, I'm sorry mother
And to my step-mother, and to my half-brother
My aunts, and uncles, cousins, step-sister, and brother
My nephew and nieces, I'm sorry to pieces I love you

I'm sorry Casey, I'm sorry Jaime (And I'll make amends)
I'm sorry Brandi, I know you all probably hate me (To family and friends)
Sorry Elizabeth, I'm sorry Lindsey (For all the hurt)
I'm sorry Sarah, I hope someday that you can forgive me (I've caused all of them)

I'm sorry Lisa, I'm sorry Susie (I've got letters to send)
I'm sorry Rachel, I made sure you barely knew me (And fences to mend)
Isabella, Alithea, Gretchen, Allison, and Wendy (Been sick too long)
I'm sorry again Sarah, this is the record's ending (So long, this is the record's ending)